Cal does B n J really work??

It struck me yesterday. Since when am I so angry with everything around me, with the world i'm in.. It seemed like I've been angry for so damn long I can't remember when it started. Actually I do. It all started when I chose to be angry rather than depressed. It was much easier to handle and instead of making you want to stop living, the raging torrents inside you keep you living. Though it slowly poisons you bit by bit and before you realise it, it becomes you.

maybe it's time to stop?

Lately I realise it drives everyone around me away. If the damage has really been done, it has driven one person away and that will be my regret for a long long time. Someone who shares your visions, aspiration and passion is just too hard to find.

I want to start making peace with my life and with that I hope everything else around me. It may be a little late but this has to stop before I lose more than I already have.

Though I realise driving my anger away will leave me with sadness.. It's probably time to face that. The wounds of the past did leave me with blaring red scars.. can I really do anything so they won't show as much? I don't want to be too jaded about life.. I'm too young to be so dissillusioned about love, hope, dreams..